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A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is eight years old, she’s got pink cheeks that her grandmother calls chubby. She wants a second cookie but her aunt says “you’ll get huge if you keep eating.” She wants a dress and the woman in the changing room says “she’ll probably need a large in that.” She wants to have dessert and her waiter says “After all that dinner you just had? You must be really hungry!” and her parents laugh.

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is eleven and she is picked second-to-last in gym class. She watches a cartoon and sees that everyone who is annoying is drawn with a big wide body, all sweaty and panting. At night she dreams she is swelling like the ocean over seabeds. When she wakes up, she skips school.

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is thirteen and her friends are stick-thin ballerinas with valleys between their hipbones. She is instead developing the wide curves of her mother. She says she is thick but her friends argue that she’s “muscular” and for some reason this hurts worse than just admitting that she jiggles when she walks and she’ll never be a dancer. Eating seconds of anything feels like she’s breaking some unspoken rule. The word “indulgent” starts to go along with “food.”

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is fourteen and she has stopped drinking soda and juice because they bloat you. She always takes the stairs. She fidgets when she has to sit still. Whenever she goes out for ice cream, she leaves half at the bottom - but someone else always leaves more and she feels like she’s falling. She pretends to like salad more than she does. She feels eyes burrowing through her body while she eats lunch. Kate Moss tells her nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, but she just feels like she is wilting.

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is fifteen the first time her father says “you’re getting gaunt.” She rolls her eyes. She eats one meal a day but thinks she stays the same size. Every time she picks up a brownie she thinks of the people she sees on t.v. and every time she has cake, she thinks of the one million magazine articles on restricting calories. She used to have no idea a flat stomach was supposed to be beautiful until she saw advice on how to achieve it. She cuts back on everything. She controls. They tell her she’s getting too thin but she doesn’t believe it.

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is sixteen and tearing herself into shreds in order for a thigh gap big enough to hush the screams in her head. She doesn’t “indulge,” ever. She can’t go out with friends, they expect her to eat. She damns her sweet tooth directly to hell. It’s coffee for breakfast and tea for lunch and if there’s dance that evening, two cups of water and then maybe an apple. She lies all the time until she thinks the words will rot her teeth. She dreams about food when she sleeps. Her aunt begs her to eat anything, even just a small cookie. They say, “One bite won’t make you fat, will it, darling?”

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is seventeen and too sick to go to prom because she can’t stand up for very long. She thinks she wouldn’t look good in a dress anyway. Her nails are blue and not because they are painted. Her hair is too thin to do anything with. She’s tired all the time and always distracted. She once absently mentions the caloric value of grapes to the boy she is with and he looks at her like she’s gone insane and in that moment she realizes most people don’t have numbers constantly scrolling in their heads. She swallows hard and tries to figure out where it all went wrong, why more than a granola bar for a meal makes her feel sick, why she tastes disease and courts with death. She misses sleep. She misses being able to dream. She misses being herself instead of just being empty.

A FAT LITTLE GIRL
is twenty and writes poetry and is a healthy weight and still fights down the voices every single day. She puts food in her mouth and sometimes cries about it but more and more often feels good, feels balanced. Her cheeks are pink and they are chubby and soft and no longer growing slight fur. Her hair is long and it is beautiful. She still picks herself apart in the mirror, but she’s starting to get better about it. She wears the dress she likes even if it only fits her in a large and she doesn’t feel like a failure for it. She is falling in love with the fat on her hips.

She is eating out with friends and not worrying about finding the lowest calorie item on the menu when she hears a mother tell her four year old daughter “You can’t have ice cream, we just had dinner.
You don’t want to end up as a fat little girl.”

Why do we constantly do this to our children? /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)

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Hard therapy session today:/

Hopefully group goes better

things to do before papi comes thursday night

  1.  not smoke pot
  2.  laundry
  3.  dishes
  4.  grocery
  5.  gym x 2
  6. math homework 
  7.  therapy 
  8.  linguistics homework
  9.  psych homework
  10.  text boss and ask for friday off

burgrs:

*blogs from phone in front of my computer*

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recoveryisbeautiful:


Even though some of the links go directly to the iTunes or Android store, still double check them because most of them are available of both platforms as well as others :)
12 Steps AA Companion (iTunes/Android)
Alura: Cognitive Therapy
ASK & Prevent Suicide (iTunes/Android)
AutisMate
Beating the Blues
Beat Panic
Beat Social Phobia (iTunes/Android)
BellyBio Interactive Breathing
Bipol-App
BioZen
Body Beautiful
BrainHQ
CBT Referee
Circle of 6
Cogmed
CogniFit
Cognitive Diary CBT Self-Help
Cognitive Enhancement Therapy
Constant Therapy
COGPACK
Control Alcohol (iTunes/Android)
DBT Diary Card and Skills Coach
DBT Self Help
Depression CBT Self-Help Guide
Eating D
eCBT
eMoods Bipolar Mood Tracker
Emotions and Feelings - AutismFeelings Book
Fit Brains
Focus Trainer
Guardly
Happy Habits: Choose Happiness
HAPPYneuron
HELP Prevent Suicide (iTunes/Android)
iCBT
iCounselor
iMoodJournal
ImQuit – Quit Addiction
iPromises
iStress
Just-in-Case
Kissy Project
Life Mood
LifeLine Response
Live Happy
Lumosity
Mobicip Safe Browser with Parental Control
Mood and Anxiety Diary
Mood Panda
Mood Tracker
Mood Tracking Journal and Diary
Mood Watch
MoodGYM
MoodKit
Moodlytics
MoodMaster Anti-Depression App
Moody Me
MyBrainSolutions
MindShift
My Mood Tracker
MyThoughts
OneHealth Meeting Finder
OnWatch (iTunes/Android)
Operation Reach Out (iTunes/Android)
Optimism
Overcoming Social Anxiety
Panic Aid
Project Toe
PSSCogRehab
PTSD Coach
QPR Suicide Crisis Support
Recovery Box
Recovery Record
Rise Up + Recover
Sad Scale
SAFE Alternatives
Safe Helpline
Safety App
Safety Plan
SAM – Self Help for Anxiety Management
SAS – Social Anxiety Support
Scientific Brain Training Pro
Self-Esteem Blackboard
Self Help Classics
Sobriety Counter
Stop Panic & Anxiety Self Help
Stop Drinking (iTunes/Android)
STOP!T
StopSelfHarm
Suicide Lifeguard
T2 Mood Tracker
Take Control
Teen Hotlines
The Now
This Way Up
Thought Diary
Watch Over Me – Personal Safety App
Way of Life
WhatsMyM3
Wingman Project
Worry Box- Anxiety Self Help

recoveryisbeautiful:

Even though some of the links go directly to the iTunes or Android store, still double check them because most of them are available of both platforms as well as others :)

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noahleigh:

In Repose (April 2014, IUPUI)
Taken with an iPhone 4, edited in Lightroom 5.
I liked this candid photo I took of contrapppposto while we were having lunch so much I decided to do a proper edit of it, even though I’ve already posted it on Instagram. I think this version does it much greater justice and is closer to what I was trying to capture.

noahleigh:

In Repose (April 2014, IUPUI)

Taken with an iPhone 4, edited in Lightroom 5.

I liked this candid photo I took of contrapppposto while we were having lunch so much I decided to do a proper edit of it, even though I’ve already posted it on Instagram. I think this version does it much greater justice and is closer to what I was trying to capture.

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